A contradictory feeling

came back from alumni practice. well, we sightread 12 pieces and i slacked for 6 pieces cos i only have 6 out of the 12 pieces given. that, perhaps, is the good thing about playing Alto Clarinet but sometimes i just feel outta place. it's like, it's pretty contradicting how at times i feel like playing Bass Clarinet and how sometimes i'm just happy with Alto Clarinet. my oh my, what am i thinking? i ain't got 4 hands, 4 eyes and 2 mouths.

this somehow brings back memories when i first knew i hadda change to Bass Clarinet. i cried. not meaning that Bass Clarinet is not a nice instrument but at that point of time i just love Alto Clarinet. perhaps cos i went through competitions with me and that i placed it for almost half of my secondary school life. it's like a habit. but all thanks to 'The Merry Widow', i found out it wasn't bad after all.

and then i was asked to play Alto Clarinet for the past concert this year.
signed a document in which i had to check through my particulars and found out that 'Alto/Bass Clarinet' was under what instrument i play. does that mean at ties i will be asked to play Bass Clarinet? i hope so! at least i won't feel so inferior when it comes to sightreading and stuff. and Bass Clarinet parts are simply so cutee~