Scrapped knee

hurt my knee today. its painful. okays, what's there to complain its painful you would say. but its mean years since i last fell. the last time was when i was 10.

it hurts not cos i fell. but cos it got stuck in the chair. how? the chair was those coffeeshop like but those without the back rest. it was already cracked. because i have this habit of folding one of my knees and resting on the chair top. and then i was talking to a customer when my knee exerted force onto it.

"clang!" both the customers were shocked. so was i. and then i treated it as normal. what really happened was it cracked further, getting my knee stuck in it and then it 'flew' out. just like when you insert your finger on the fast food drink cap. it hurts right.

and then it went bleeding. not much. but you know how much it hurts. especially its been years since i last fell. now it's so painful when i walk. if i straighten my knee, i would have to straighten it all the way home. or i would have to walk as normal without straightening my knees.

went to bathe and came out with my left knee hurting like hell T.T

Robin is resigning, i dont know whether this is a good or bad news. im sooo afraid now Corinne would put me in Teban for 3 days a week. i have to go there for a day next week. cos Robin is going to go there for the full five days he's working next week.

and the newcomer is gonna be Corinne's 'daughter's bf'. im sooo scared she might treat him better than me. thus being biased then ever. i kinda dread this. fear lingers in my heart now.

when will my fear go away? :(

Irresistably cute!

so it's another day whereby i'm online after a long day's work. well, just cant seem to resist the temptation of not using the internet.

yeah, have been kinda busy with my work. am getting my pay next week. should be around 850 bah. thats a whole lotta sum as i've worked for 20 days since i started work on the 11th.

gosh. i think my left eye is getting an infection. i really cant afford to get an infection. or i'll be like an blind girl when i walk on the street.

i must say i love kids who are mixed-blood. what i mean is Asian mix with Western. they look so damn cute and i love them just so much. i remember this baby who is, perhaps, at least 9 months old. the first time he was in the shop was when his granny carried him. i just smiled at him and he grinned, showing his baby tooth. that's sooo cute!

and then i saw him today again. this time his dad carrying him. i did the same and he grinned back again. my god. that really made my day.

also, there was this boy which resembles La Bi Xiao Xin (Crayon Shin Chan). why? not cos of his looks. but cos of the way he talks. he was so naughty when he saw the vcd he badly wanted. his mum just wouldnt buy it for him, for fun lah. and then he had this 'handcuffs' on him. he handcuffed himself to the cd rack and i played with him about. he took the vcd quite near to the sensor and it rang. "the police is coming to get you", he went stunned and went back in.

this is not very much like La Bi Xiao Xin, you would say. but guessed what happened. while i was keying in the codes of the vcds for a male customer, the boy came over with an Ultraman vcd saying "ke bu ke yi bang wo kan zhe shi bu shi volume two, mei nu" (can you help me check if this is the volume two, pretty girl) i was shocked and so paiseh. i looked at the vcd and told him it wasnt state there. instead, i asked if he have this at home. he went like "ni zhen de bu zhi dao ah, mei nu" (you dont know? pretty girl.) -.-;

he kept on mei nu-ing here and there. and i cant help but laugh.

well, at least he didnt address me as auntie =D

i asked his mother if he watched too much of La Bi Xiao Xin and she said yes. she hopes he doesnt grow up like that. i'll pray for that mum.

when me and Corinne is done with the keying of codes and stuff, we handed him the vcds. he went like "mei nu, ke bu ke yi gei wo duo yi ge zi dai" (pretty girl, can you please give me another plastic bag?) when i hand him that, he said "xie xie mei nu" umpteen times. me and Corinne cant help but laugh.

so cute right! haha.

Would you ever know?

whenever you walk past me, you send butterfiles in my stomach.
whenever you smile at me, my heart melt instantly
whenever you look at me, you send shivers down my spine
whenever you're not around, i feel im missing you badly

there's so many unspoken feelings in my heart.
yet you cant hear me calling you.
i hope one day you'll realise my value.

but would you ever know?

Warning: Long Entry Ahead

Friday, 221004
Yen Loo, my supervisor, received a bouquet of flowers from a guy by the name of Grifder (still dont know how to pronounce). he comment that i looked like a 15 year old but my thinking is of the age of 22 years old. advised him alot about love stuff and how to woo my supervisor. on top of that, he's 26 years old. he said he's gonna buy a SaSa bear for me on my birthday and is willing to sponsor me for rebonding. it's too fast to skip to conclusion whether he'll keep his promise not.

Saturday, 231004
Grifder became my godbrother and he came to look for me in Teban to talk about Yen Loo. then sent me home in his car. Wendy came to look for me in the afternoon and then we crapped around abit.

Sunday, 241004
Yen Loo is so nice to me. she's changing one of my three days in Teban to two. she said it's very dangerous for me to work there for too many days and also cos of my horrifying encounter with a guy who speaks nothing but hokkien and buy vcds with 'porn-like' covers. Grifder accomplished the task which i had plan for him to show himself to Yen Loo and everything seems fine..

Monday, 251004
Cheryl came to visit me in Teban and then i taught her Maths. Wendy came to but later at night at about 9. Grifder was supposed to fetch me home but due to work, he didnt. and then i went back to Jurong Entertainment to pass Corinne the keys to access to Teban. and then talked to her and found out we can actually talk about alot of stuff.

Tuesday, 261004
Corinne recommend a show, called "水月洞天" to me. oh my god, the youngest brother in the story is soooo damn cute. he had to act stupid cos he's supposed to be like that but i find him really cute. concidentally, Corinne's friend returned her the vcds today and she lent me. that's so nice of her :)

in conclusion
do i look like a 15 years old? =// Robin, my colleague, also thought im 15 years old. haha. nothing much. having my break but its early in the morning and im not tired.

Peng's birthday celebration

its obvious i went out with Peng and peeps for her birthday celebration. i know she might have guessed it, cos we did the same for Shu Chen. decided to ta pau what we'd like to eat and just consume our food on any stone table we find. ended up eating Pizza Hut and spent a whopping 55 bucks.

yes, and i should say the service there SUCKS. i apologised if anyone of you've been there or worked there before and dont agree with me. what we order was i think the family feast for 4 people. the food arrived late, i know, cos they had to prepare that. that was okay you know..

i admit we were like a bunch of kinda suakus as we dont dine in there often and we didnt know we had to add another 1.5 bucks for the salad. so we paid an extra for that. and when the pizzas came, i realised they didnt give us our Hut's Platter. i must say i REMEMBER having it the other time i dine in there with Gaius, Celine and Carmen.

in order to confirm it, we asked for the menu to checked. the waiter came to collect the soup bowls and the pizza pans. and none realised we haven get our Hut's platter. we are not being ridiculous or stingy but we dine in once in a while and its so expensive and we should get all we order. so i called the waitress and told her we haven get that.

she looked shocked and then asked the worker to prepare that for us. another waitress which took our order, went to collect it and i overheard her saying "dont give them so much" pointing at us. what service! i was like "NAB*I" and Peng they all were shocked. of cos, i was also trying to be funny.

and when she finally give us what we ordered, she went like "have you all got your Hut's Platter?" if the waiter hadnt collect the pizza pans and soup bowls, i would go like "do you see any Hut's Platter lying around?!" in a damn sarcastic way, i tell you..

she must really thank god i just tell her NO in a very nice way.

and of cos, all of us sweared we'll NEVER EVER visit that Pizza Hut anymore.

after that, we sat at the stone table outside Pizza Hut. Shu Chen and Shu Mei went to buy the 'cake', which is supposed to be the "mummy i want chocolate! No! i want cookies n creme" but ended up buying something even more fabulous. they came back with a bun. at first i thought Shu Chen was really hungry.. who knows they used the chocolate stick they bought and stuck it the middle of the bun. the chocolate stick was really huge and i must say, it looked like a butt trying to shit. disgusting.. haha.

Peng ate the bun. LOL. and then we enjoyed the ice cream and went to the arcade.

played games like BiShi BaShi and Come On Baby. i must say the game Come On Baby is damn cute and we kept laughing. but.. its kinda hard to play.

hit the buttons like hell and my hand hurt so much and was so warm. haha. i think my arms will ache for the rest of tomorrow. yes, am gonna work alllllll the way to next Wednesday. my holidays are packed. now i wonder would i even have the time to go out shopping just for the 'makeover'

okay, i shall end now. my entries are soooooo long-winded nowadays

A contradictory issue

i came across this quotation..

it is better to go for someone who loves you, rather than someone who you love.

how many of you agree to it? i believe most of you guys.

but the thing is, it says its better to go for someone who loves you.. but isnt the someone going for the person he/she loves?

get my meaning?if that's the case, who should we go for?

in some ways i dont agree to that quotation. i'd rather go for someone whom i love and loves me too. of cos, it takes time to build mutual love. then again, nothing comes for free.

Another working day

just had a refreshing shower and am now in front of my laptop. work is as usual and sales hasnt been really good. sad news came. me and Robin have to work in Teban Gardens for 3 days a week cos the sales at JE was detoriating(did i spell it right?) since a few months ago.

i thought it was Corinne who purposely put me there for three days a week cos when i first saw de scheledue, i was the only one working three days for three weeks. working there isnt bad, of cos when i have my full gear with me. but its so stuffy and kinda boring. worst of all, i dont like to trouble my dad to send my 'ai xin lunch' over and the auntie next door to look after the shop when i wanna go out and buy dinner. on top of that, i see nothing nice to eat there. that makes me wanna skip my dinner whenever im there.

but im glad nice customers are always there. i notice this Caucasian(did i spell correctly?) who always come to our branch and purchase Japanese Anime. guess he's a real fan of Japanese Anime. oh ya! im kinda addicted to the vcds which are beckoning me! like Greed Mask, Inuyasha, Rumbling Hearts, Pretty Guardian etc. i dont wanna spend so much on vcds! *screams*

but it seems i have to. i think im gonna get hooked by all these!

there was this sweet looking girl whom i think is about 3 years old. she was soooo sweet, i tell you. she held on to her granny's hand and then kept putting her hand in her mouth. whats so sweet about that, you might think. but when i smiled at her. she grinned widely! that's soooo sweet!

the thing is, its rare that kids would actually grin widely or stuff like that to you when you smile at them. and she did! she put a smile on my face with her cute little actions.

and then there was this little boy who pestered his parents to buy some vcds for him. he was like getting near to me and trying to be funny. i played along with him. he folded his arms and gave me the proud look. i did the same but act even more arrogant than him and he laughed like hell. he tried to peek at how i was handling the cashier stuff but he was too short. cute little fellow.

next, this brothers seemed so cute too. they were like walking about and choosing vcds but to no avail. not because they cant find what they want, but because their parents dont wanna buy. yet they were munching their snacks happily.

the older brother was so funny. when his dad said he wanna buy The Best Bet, he went like "pa, dont buy" and then i was like --; there goes another sales! but then its good lah. he knows how not to waste money. not that buying vcds is a waste lah.. but.. hmm. lol.

they were so cute and their parents are so friendly that the boys' dad said "give jie jie some snacks" and they offered their snacks. soooo sweet. what a nice gesture but of cos i shouldnt cheat a kid of their snacks. so i didnt take it. lol.

okay, such a wonderful day with cute encounters with kids. Wenna, are you jealous? LOL.

suddenly i crave for Delifrance.

am reading this book entitled Sunshine Jelly. seems like a nice book. the introduction of the story is sooooo sweet. its setting is whereby this sweet guy had to leave the country because of his career. his girlfriend thought it was supposed to be a joke because on the 19th of every month, the guy would prepare a surprise for her. each surprise is different because they met on 19/10 three years ago. on top of that, the guy would always ask the girl all the 'what if' questions and seemed so serious..

then on the 19th of dont know which month, the guy asked the gal what if he leaves the country for his career. the girl thought it was a joke and it turned out real.

she was so sad yet she controlled her tears. she couldnt bear leaving the guy yet she doesnt want to show she's sad. so how they left each other at the airport was, the girl counted to three and they backfaced each other and start to walk their separate ways. the guy stopped her after a while.. and said:

"im gonna take the next flight. and from now till the next flight, there is 3 hours. in these three hours, there is 300 minutes which is 18000 seconds. every second from now on when i look at you, i would recall a memory of the both of us.. so in order for me to capture 18000 memories of the both of us, ive decided to take the next flight.."

sweet, aint it?but these kinda love would only appear in movies. *sad*

Day off but it's so boring

i forgot to add that when kids ranging from 8 years to 12 years are in need of help when they couldnt find the vcd they wanted, they would approach me and say "auntie, do you have the.." its so .. !! do i look so old? but thank god all the adults would say "miss, do you have.." if not i might go berserk. ah lol.

but this kid approach me saying "miss, do you have.." thank god. at least i dont look that old to him. LOL.

yes i also forgot to say that my manager, Edmund went to patrol the shop the day before. and then Corinne was supposed to look for the CD titles he requested and give him the exact quantity that's left in the shop. she couldnt find Swimming Upstream and D-N Angel. and i was the one who gave Edmund the directions. and then he muttered "seems like you know this place better" a little triumph in my heart! LOL.

well, the reason i know where those CDs are placed because when i had nothing to do in the shop, i would go around arranging the CDs and try to remember the titles of the CDs so the next time a customer asks for it, i would know where to find it.

Edmund was so funny. he said he's remember my name cos his first girlfriend's name was also Hui Shan. cos there was 2 pages of rules we have to follow or we would have the pay fines if we break those rules, he went saying "do you all know who is the bloody asrehole who created those rules?" we said no and then he replied "its the one sitting down here". he was practically refering himself as the bloody asrehole cos he was the only one sitting and both of us laughed.

am leading a boring day today. slept for twelve hours and perhaps i might meet Cheryl for dinner.

A lot to say

its been quite some time since i last updated. well, has been really busy with my work cos ive been working all the way till im gonna have my break tomorrow!

working has been nice but it was kinda sucky when i work wit Corinne. she's just like another Wendy. what i meant was, Corinne treats me the way Wendy treated Farhanah in the past. that totally sucks. i didnt have a really good impression of Corinne but now its worst.

she's soooo nice in front of me but i wouldnt know if she did backstab me. i admit i do ask certain stupid questions but its cos im kinda blur and she cant blame me because ive only been there for like.. a week.

worst still, she talks on the phone sooo long, leaving me to put sensors and price tag in the goods that was being delivered. i did without any complains, yet she seems to dislike me in some ways. i just dont understand.

forget about that, im just glad some customers add joy to my life. cos before we actually give the customers what they just purchased, we have to take out the sensor or it will ring when they walk out. i used the penknife to take it out and then i took it out about 15 cm away from my eyes. one customer said "be careful of your eyes ahh" but what was in my heart is, i wanna deliver the best to the customers.

i dont like waiting, so i wouldnt want the customers to wait when we are taking out the sensors and stuff like that. another customer was so cute. we couldnt take out the sensor cos it went all the way in the box so we told him the sensor would ring if he walk out (previously we couldnt take out the sensor from what his son purchased and it rang). in a humorous way, he went like "hei!" and hid the cd beside him.

surprisingly, it didnt rang! maybe cos of his beer belly bahh (im so badd)

working at Teban Gardens is kinda boring for my first day there cos i had to do stock check in the 'aircon-less' place. the environment is nice and not as ulu as what the rest claim. sales there is really bad, earning less then 200 a day.

worked there today too, but today it was definitely better. i brought my 'entire home' there. i had the 'ai xin breakfast' made by my mum, 'ai xin lunch' delivered by my dad, Say Yes Enterprise book, handphone charger, Teenage magazine and of cos my beloved Jay Chou CD. i know im being too.. hmmm.. kua zhang but i kept myself entertained throughout.

yes, coincidentally, my cute little brother, Wei Wen, works in Long John Silver. and then i get to see him every now and then. but the person i miss most.. is Ali..

i wonder how he's doing now.. i just miss him so.

of cos i miss someone else.. but then its soooooo impossible to see him for now.and yes, im still working hard, skipping meals here and there and wanting to strive for the best for him..

oh no, my left eye is getting an infection but i still put on my contact lenses if not i'll feel so strange. as if ive lost my eyes.. haha.

still thinking what im gonna do the whole day. am waiting for the reunion for Peng's birthday on thursday..

Work, work, work!

havent been online, hmmm, for a day. lol. dont really get used to it, but ive gotta work. and am tired by the time i get home. today's my off day, but had meeting early in the morning and went out just now.

hectic life i have now. am gonna work four full days straight and then have a break on tue and thur. gonna celebrate peng's birthday on tue.

found quite a number of jay's stuff in the bookshop at imm. went crazy after that, lol. i lurve him soooooo much.

sales in the shop has been constant, cant wait to finish working for the first full month and then get my pay and yahoo! i'll go shopping and buy the many things i wanna buy: jay cds, inuyasha vcds, clothes, jay stuff, pc cable link, ram to play sims 2 and the list goes on! heee

i guess your still haunting my mind. everytime i see someone who resembles you, i cant help but look at that person to check out whether it's you. and it hurts me when it's not. i shouldnt think about the past anymore, but those memories.. its so hard to forget you completely.. you left my heart just like that, broke my fragile heart yet now i feel i cant let you..

when can i let go of you completely? i hurts me to think of the past yet im missing you.. i dont know why im thinking about all these.. but.. your still haunting me.. ='(

First day of work

pretty obvious that today's my first day of work. everything went smoothly and i found out its quite fun. quite relaxing but of cos its my first day so i wouldnt dare to do anything, like sitting down and rest, stuff like that.

my colleagues are friendly and approachable. the feeling's awkward, of cos. but soon, i got along quite well.

my supervisor was quite fierce when i overheard her scolding somebody from another outlet. and i was so scared i practically kept quiet. and then they assured me that she wouldnt do that to anyone in our outlet cos the guy over the other outlet is hopeless.

phew~ had to get used and didnt really want to serve customers. i mean, when they ask 'do you have bla bla bla'. i wouldnt know where the things they want are. till now, ive only learnt where is korea drama, japanese drama, japanese anime, tvbi serial, english titles, chinese titles plus cd racks. wow, you might think, thats only the basic.

i could only answer a customer's question when they ask me 'where is the korea dramas placed?', questions like that. and the furthest i know was, the newest japanese anime is Inuyasha, chinese title is Mars, english is Troy. thats it.

watched Inuyasha in the shop cos they were playing that. nice~ cos i didnt really watch it that time when Ms Chan showed the whole band.

interested in buying that but of cos ive got no $$ now lahh.

on top of that, i bumped into sanjay, aung, kenny, joe, ken, esther frm rv, and minghui. what a shock.

esther and minghui went in the shop and i backfaced them throughout. not that ive got no 'face'. just that abit embarrassed. first day is like that. soon, i'll get used bahh.

im seeing my first step to grab hold of money and go for it. all i need is a little of your attention when school reopens..

Heeren

went to Heeren and Far East with Cheryl today. and then headed to Bugis cos we cant find anything of our liking. only both earrings from He & She in Far East. Bugis also dont have what we want. except the thing is, Cheryl screamed in Converse shop.

well, it all happened when we saw PeiLi and Terence in there. and then she went like "dont look over! dont look over!" puzzled, i continued looking over. PeiLi thought it was strange, so she came over and put her face near Cheryl's. to our amazement, Cheryl screamed cos she thought it was so scary. oh dear. everyone went like -.-; , some went wah laoo. -.-; oh Cheryl..

went back to Heeren instead cos we wanna purchase Von Dutch bag and i wanna buy Converse shoes. bought those and became really tired so we went home.

spent like 70 bucks for today. gotta work hard to buy pc cable link, clothes, accessories and so many more! ahhh*

oh yar. i was abit retard when we were in Bugis. because we bought sugarcane drink to share. and when i finished drinking, i opened the drink and ate some ice. asked her whether she want. she said no. so i prepared to put the cup into the dustbin. and den split seconds later, she said "i want!!". i looked at her, shocked, but threw it in the dustbin instead. i dont know why i did that. but it just happened.

oh well..

courage is all i need.. i'll make sure i have it when school starts..

Far East

went to Yishun to check out LiTing's working place with her. were quite shocked cos the outlet there is twice as big as the one in Jurong Entertainment! haha. and then she was so scared -.-;

saw Ryan at the shopping mall too. when i saw him, i was like, "is that him?!" cos ive only met him once. the day when i know him. well, it all happened when he was trying so hard to convince me and Carmen to purchase the Andersons voucher thingy and then we paid lohh.

found him kinda cute so we made friends with him. had been in contact since but never really met up. thats why i was really shocked when i saw him. he didnt see me, and then, haha, i called him and he picked up his phone. i went like "hello, you in northpoint rite?". "how you know?" was his reply. so i told him im there too and he saw me. lol. just like that.

northpoint is quite a boring place to shop at so me and Liting decided to head to Orchard since its near Yishun. went to Lucky Plaza and saw the shop which sells so much Jay Chou stuff! *screams*

visit Far East as well and found sooooo many sweet skirt down there. okay, im just not gonna think so much first cos the stuff there is kinda expensive. wait till i get my pay bahh!

i haven even started working and then im thinking about the pay. muahaahaha.

What a makeover!

went for the interview at the bookshop today. sounds kinda appealing cos its 4.50 per hour. however, it wasnt like the cd shop whereby the guy lets us choose whether we wants to stay or not. thats the best method cos we get to choose rather than them looking through our experience and stuff.

so we decided on the cd shop. so cool.

and then Li Ting and i walked into This Fashion. she said "i shall choose some clothes and you shall wear it for me to see if you want a makeover" and of cos i went -.-;; oh dear she chose a spaghetti strap and a kinda mini skirt. not say i dont wear them but rather, im not confident of my figure yet lahh.

went to try out cos she was so into it and then she said i looked nice in it. luckily. better than saying i look fat in it. haha.

so scary. but it'll start when i get my pay and then i shall spend money on making over ;)

music of my heart. can you hear it?

So glad

went for the interview today. the salary seems attractive. working full for 5 days a week, and then getting a basic $800 pay every month, plus commission for monthly sales, target and if customer purchase more than 29.90 goods.

am going for another one tomorrow, a book shop. will compare which is more attractive ;)

am so glad ive worked hard throughout the years and never neglect my studies. i did well and i just simply love myself. why am i talking about all this? cos both my sisters are facing great difficulties in their studies..

ive seen them cried umpteen moments cos of unfinished assignments and exams not studied. just like recently my elder sis teared cos she couldnt meet up to her assignements deadline. and my younger sis? she might face repeating sec 3..

both my sis are born of similiar personalities. lazy is their nature. last minute work is what we all have but i think im the better one. they will start working on their stuff last minute. me too. but for me, i planned for the last hour. LOL.

my younger sis has been suffering from depression. great depression. she cried everyday for fear of repeating another year. she cried every night when she couldnt understand the syllabus. she cried when she miss the exam cos she woke up late due to lack of sleep. she has been studying till 3 or 4 am in the morning.

on the day she missed her exam, i could see from a pinhole eyeview that she almost fainted. cos she slept at 4 and had to wake up at 7. i pity her and at the same time hope she'll learn her lesson.

everyday when she come home from school, she would sit in front of the pc for hours till midnight. even up to having the need to have my mum shouting and nagging at her to bathe and eat. how bad can that be?

both of them have the same personality that they both want face. my younger sis? if she's gonna retain, she wanna change school.

im glad didnt take the wrong step. at least my world is a better place to live in.

Sad enough

im so sadddd. why? cos i just bought The Sims 2. spent like $55 and then ended up i cant play it using my laptop.

be it my laptop or software problem, i feel so down now. i cant find the receipt!

a short entry for now. no mood to talk!

a receipt can do wonders, always keep your receipts!

yyooouuuu

went to school today to print some stuff and then study for csa. perhaps not study bahh. more to introducting Wenna, Kai Ling and Theresa to the VOS game and they got so addicted to it. but please dont get so addicted cos exams are round the corner.

waited for the bus with Wenna and then set back home. met the coolest-guy-who-ever-worked-in-seoul-garden in the bus. okays, that's too long a name for him. well, he's Gaius (gay-ous). he hasnt changed much and then, as usual, we talked about seoul garden.

he told me one really amusing story. that there's this new hotplate washer uncle who fell in love with Auntie Ah Suan(one of the workers over there). i was like "huh! but she's already married with kids!" he said yarr. i asked if the guy's single or what, he said no. and that he's a China man and has 3 wives -.-;

he was sooooo sweet to Auntie Ah Suan that when she injured herself cos of oil splattered onto her skin, he'd apply cream for her. and when she said her shoulders ache, he would massage for her.

but of cos, she'd complain to the manager about his doings and said she dont like it. Gaius claimed she's not speaking from her heart. she actually like it. oh gosh.

that's so amusing. lol.

okays, that's it for my day.

all i want for christmas is yyooouuuu..

Memories

i recalled that day me and Sam were playing this flash game whereby we had to guess where is de item kept in one of the overturned cups. there were 3 of the cups and 8 stages whereby we had to guess correctly or we wont win the game even if its one wrong.

the speed kept increasing until the 5 rounds both of us dont know where is the item. Sam went like "i know its this and this..", pointing at the middle and right one. out of supidity, i said "why not you'll be the middle cup and i'll be the right one. we shall play scissors, paper, stone and whoever wins will chose the cup which the person is 'betting' on". we tried. for all three rounds, we did that.

miracles do happen. now i believe in that. for all the last 3 rounds, we got it through! we got bingO! you dont know how much we kept laughing after we got it correct. when we end the game, we burst our laughing.

memories are still haunting me.. when will they leave?

suddenly i felt my ex is haunting me. not him, but those bittersweet memories. ive gotten him outta my mind but i feel at times when those memories flashed past my mind, i find myself keep thinking about it.

i had to let go of him cos of his selfishness and foolishness. many times i tried not to let go of him but i feel i just cant stay on with someone whom i already cant trust completely. its like out of the blue moon he said he cant forget his ex. at the same time, he went to have a kinda 'affair' with someone else some where.

i felt so hurt. he had hurt me so miserably. even Ali, my god brother, went like why did he do all that to you? he very what lehh. that's so sweet and touching. cos Ali is a sorta person who dont speak of his true feelings.. and then he said that.

however, through the misery i went through, i found a handful of friends who shone light on me when i needed that.. that's when i see real friendship..

on the whole, friendships outshine relationships.

This is for Wenna Poot

some things are predestined to happen..

okays. so ive changed my layout(again). this time its kinda 'pinkish'. you might ask why the sudden liking for pink.. but hmmm. no. i dont mean i like pink. i just find it sweet and kinda nice. of cos especially when im surrounded by girls who like pink: Wennna Poot, Kai Ling, Theresa, Li Ting(friend) and Li Ting (sister).

-.-; and its also cos dodgerblue dont match black. but those pinks, as in deeppink and hotpink matches black.

hmm, Wenna, just in case your gonna ask me "where are the scrollbars", im gonna tell you ive put everything black. cos it doesnt look good with it. and to remind you, the wheel for scrolling on your mouse is not fake ;)

hehe...

[edit] Wenna Poot. pardon me for my frankness cos your always so blur.. [/edit]

=D

and yes. before i forget.. Happy Children's Day!

You know what?

hey peeps. guess who i saw today?! i know none of you guys would be able to guess and might be thinking its impossible.. hmmm... ahhh... uhhhh. i... saw BENJAMIN EIO! man! i saw him 4 stops before NP's busstop. i was so shocked.

when i saw him, i blinked my eyes umpteen times to confirm its really him. YES, it is. he was wearing a sky blue tee shirt and seemed to be waiting for a bus. too bad it wasnt the bus i was taking but he was so cuteee! my god. haha.

and then the best thing happened. met Elmo today. lol. well, it was Leslie who told me they were in 310512 and i realised i was in 310513.. went to look through from the back dorr but to no avail. so i called Leslie and confirm. he told me the wrong classroom!

and then i went so mad and crazy.. but i couldnt see him.. cos he was so near to the wall i could not even see his back view. so Leslie came out and then talk to me. who knows minutes later Elmo came out! i was so shy and i think my face turned red and he actually smiled to me! i got Leslie to take a photo of him but realised he doesnt like people to talk photos of his. if i want, i should take him from his friendster.. hmm. okay lahh.

Leslie told me something which i was soooo happy. he said Elmo comment that my friendster photos are not that nice.. and i looked better in person! woahhh. i cannot take it liao.. ~.~

he also said that Elmo touched my handphone.. ohhh.. ahhh!haha.. okay okays.. =D