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FYP is horrible. We're so near the deadline yet we're like only 50% done and today Kevin, a student of Mr Jamie, said we might just don't have enough time to finish it..

He explained why and both Kai Ling and I panicked... So worried I could cry.. So worried we immediately seeked help from Mr Jamie..

I'm very worried about the product because I realised Ms Susie Loo is more concerned with the product instead of the process.. Yet Mr Jamie is more concerned about our process than our product..

Mr Jamie knows how much Kai Ling and I had struggled just to make our FYP possible, he guides us through our process, and learns that we seriously have very very very little basic of animation and he taught us alot of things..

On the other hand, Ms Susie Loo has been meeting us only on check points because she just wants to make sure we're doing our stuff..

I really hope at the end of our presentations, Mr Jamie will discuss with regarding our final grades instead of deciding themselves.. though I know that at the end of the day, Kai Ling and I each have to produce our own individual reports, do our own presentations, and that even though Mr Jamie is the head of this whole FYP, and Ms Susie Loo is his assistant, I really hope they will sit down and discuss about it..

Maybe I shan't worry about that now..

A big blow during afternoon, then when I reached home, I was greeted by the news that my brother has a malignant tumor in his stomach? I'm not sure but that's the reason why he's been vomiting after meals..

Very scary.. I'm glad that he found out that before it becomes cancerous.. But after removing the tumor, he has to go through chemotherapy to ensure everything is okay.. That means hair loss..

:(

It really upsets me because what if it was me?

Imagine all the hair loss because of chemotherapy..

Anyway, for the next weekdays, I'll be giving up my own personal space in the house and sleep in my younger sister's room because my brother and sister-in-law will be staying over so my mum will not be so worried about my brother..

My scratching condition has gotten worst too.. I'm like scratching till my skin peels and then bleeds.. I'm so upset about scratching myself yet I can't help but scratch when I feel itchy..

My mum's ankle is swollen too..

Everything in my life is so messed up..

I hope things get better before my birthday arrives, else.. I really don't have the mood to even celebrate it..