Night out at Clarke Quay

wtf. im actually blogging this entire thing for the 3rd time. the worst night blogging i ever had.

okay, so yesterday (yes, i should use yesterday) i had GREAT fun~

been out with my junior class and created havoc. basically the wildest thing i ever did since BBQ night :))

wanted to watch Madagascar but then the slots were either full or the only seats avail are first row seats. not worth for a weekend movie ya know..

ended up in Plaza Singapura when we decided to eat Pasta Mania and took a cab down to RiverSide Point when PS is too boring for us. had so-called supper @ TCC (Talk Cock Cafe) :))

was actually loitering around Clarke Quay cos the 8 seater tables were taken. when we got really bored, we decided to go and stare @ the 3 people who were dominating the 8 seater seats.

below are pics :))



took this pic when we arrived @ RiverSide Point. we are the Act Cute Gang a.k.a ACG :D the members consist of Wei Zhen, ME~~, Jia Yi, Alvin, Reuben, Jia Jin and Jonathan.

walked all the way to find a cafe when we saw a funny hair guy..



i supposed only Jon and I understood the meaning of candid shot..

while on the way to the river side..



ah oh well, ME and Jon were in hyper camera mood lah..

when we finally got our comfy seats in TCC and were waiting for our orders to arrive.. this was what i did..



out of pure boredom can?

this was what we ordered..



YUMMY~~ the potato wedges were covered and the melted cheese reminds me of nachos~~~~

well, what's an outing without a group photo?



all smiled happily :))

Jia Yi, Jon, ME and Wei Zhen decided to act stupid..



i look like a pig but i love it :P

i was trying to act cute when i was caught in action..



i hope they dont know i was missing home! (as if :P)

i had yummy MochaVilla. was holding my straw out of the glass when this happened..



look @ the mess! i didnt do it intentionally can?

the guys were bored when they started getting horny..




Jia Jin looks so happy! and i supposed Reuben have something for Jia Jin :P

even Jon and Jia Yi got influenced by this gay couple when..




they tried to do the same! oh man, i was freaked out!!

time for a GAYS group photo!



they look so lovely :))

it wasnt surprising when ME and Wei Zhen started to act strangely..



i realised i was touching her breast! :X

she even tried to rape me..



and i got so excited about it. to think the guys caught us in action :((

Jon's perverted hormones started to control him..



they just keep running wild!!



2 models-wanna-bes aunties trying to pose for a water ad..

when the bill came and proved to be disastrous..




almost thought we had to wash the dishes!

but fear not..



we still have shillings left for tips. RAWR~~

when we left, Jon's perverted hormones started acting wildly again..



he tried to do a pole dance!!

Jon and ME were still hungry when..



we started imagine ourselves licking the giant ice cream..

we even tried to..



imagine ourselves in a posh resturant!!

after TCC..



the boys had toilet runs.

just kidding lah~~



i didnt know why the mrt phones started ringing and i had to pick them up! but the guys looked @ me strangely.. sobs..

WHEE~~ that's all folks. i'd always remember today :))

iE games & campfire

had the iE games yesterday. kinda enjoyed myself cos i was in charge of the Confident station and Job Agency booth. enjoyed listening to all the craps the freshies shouted through the loud hailer. it includes some people who shouted craps like: "I WANT TO BE A RAPIST, COS I WANT TO RAPE YOU" and "I WANT TO BE A TERRORIST, COS I WANT TO BOMB YOUR HOUSE" -____-;

ah oh well. was a little biased cos i employed my 1mo1 and then gave them 900k :x but they lost it all in investments -_-; there was even daylight robbery. Yong Jia was robbed. omg. a freaking 800k was stolen but only 500k was given back. and ya, i didnt expect my job agency to be so hot and it was bustling with customers. Wenna and i had a hard time. i was sweating like hell and everyone is waiting for their turn to employed. it turned out, oh well, unorganised, cos time is tight.

after the afternoon session, i met up with my class peeps (Jonathan, Alvin, Jia Yi, Wei Zhen and Reuben) for dinner. kinda fun. i shall skip the details cos i dont want this entry to be too long winded =D

as for today, we had the campfire. okay, i ADMIT. its DARN unorganised and i was pissed. oh well, i decided to forgive cos alot of people were unhappy with it too. and yes, its boring :x i only enjoyed the decorating Ah Gua part :D

below are some pictures for today:



before the games..

this is Jonathan. always like to be in the center of attraction! is racist and discriminating!



the Ah Gua from our group. make up is messy cos time was tight and we were doing make up for him @ a going-to-be-night-soon time. but he look pretty on the overall can. by the way, his name is Jia Jin :)



a glimpse @ all the Ah Guas from other groups. dont get too gross yet :D



2 Ah Guas from other groups.



and lastly, the winner among the Ah Guas!

are you gross? haha. or are you laughing? i wonder who would still wanna be Ah Gua after seeing all these pics :P

had dinner after the campfire @ Clementi Mac with the gang again. but this time round, Jia Jin and Wei Tian joined as well. FUN~~

will be going out to watch Madagascar with them tomorrow :D

and then DB project on sunday

got this inspiration after kopping the song from Edward the other day. oh ya! did i mentioned i met alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot of new friends these few days? :DD

i forgot to mention this. IS was nice. Nisa and i were the only girls in class -_-; but the lecturer is nice and the guys are friendly :DDDDDD

okay i should stop now. it's late already! almost 3!! :DD

iE games preparation

day started as usual. went to school early to crap with my buddy group. bleah. had fun lah. was like super blurr cos i keep misplacing things. didnt plan to act blur can. LOL.

then went to lessons loh. oh i must say Andy is great lah. he is currently our OOP teacher and i can say i learnt something. i hope i can score the distinction (okay, ive never got one) for this module. he really teach well, man.

bumped into my buddy group after buying materials for the banner thingy. then drew our banners. i must say my booth looked the greatest :D

left the school @ 11 leh. so tiring. but i pity Raj. it's his birthday today and he had to attend such things. he cant even go out and meet his girl. okay, it was the usuals. he and i still @ loggerheads but we chatted alot. haha. then he told me its his birthday and i thought i should accompany him since he's so tired and cant go and that his family is pestering him to go home early =/

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAJ~~

doubt he'll see it though. but oh well, its the thought that counts can :)

oh ya, as he stayed juz a few streets away, he gave me free cab ride home :D felt bad leaving Wenna, Kai Ling and Theresa cos they're cutting the money :(( but i cant turn down the offer (im not a cheapskate lah. but its his birthday and he's like so sad i think i ought to make him feel better abit)

hope they have @ least reached home now. if not i'll feel guilty forever. it's like i asked them to join (out of their own free will though) but they had to do so much work.

oh shit. ive been feeling so guilty nowadays. one for my buddy group. one for my friends.

did i mention i saw Daphne Khoo today? she's like a loner leh =x (Jon dont kill me can)

i think i should sleep soon. i have to reach sports hall earlier then 8 >.<

Class BBQ photos

oh yeah, ive finally edited the photos and uploaded them. please wait patiently for them to load :)

here it goes:



here's the cake for William (our mentor), Sam and Xeno. belated birthday cake for them though. notice the candle. it didnt have the thingy which puts the candle in place and it seems shorter than usual. what happened?



look at the chocolate at the bottom of the candle. and notice the huge hole. the culprit: Wenna. well, it's so Wenna :)



William and Sam. wanna see William in candid shot?



yes! William in candid! he even did the victory thingy. i think this is a rare shot man. font's too small though. but the words are visible, i hope.



remember what happened to the cake? Wei Ming ate the red thingy (i dont know what's that called). and the culprit is so happy -_-;

after almost everyone got sabotaged.



the cake is missing Xeno..



Wenna trying to sabotage me =PP but in the end Wei Ming still got me though -_-;



Xeno is finally here, but the cake's 3/4 gone..



Sam is like so gay-ish =PPPP look @ Wenna's expression -_-;



2 stupid girls trying to save the tree from falling. prolly night-dreaming-ing.

after this was night riding..



beautiful bikes.



fancy dreaming about home. i dont know what they were trying to do. all of them are older than me but missing home. *shakes head* =P

some random shots before the BBQ starts and before night falls..

im finally done!

Orientation, BBQ & Night Cycling

had orientation with the freshies today. FUN~~

hope they didnt think it's boring.

met my class people. had games @ 11 and did abit of interaction. played the newspaper game. let 2 of my class girls step on my foot cos they couldnt balance. i supposed the senior buddies were shocked but then they're my class people what, i must help :D

then played miror image. hurhur. Jonathan (mo1 peeps) got sabotaged. haha. the guy from mo3, i think, was worst =x they had ink all over their face.

after that was the meeting the mentor session. Mr Ong is their mentor. seems like a nice guy and is not monotonous -phew- if not i supposed the class would have bore to death.

lunch break was next and im seriously glad no one wanted to 'run away' cos i know from the endless briefings, they might think it's gonna be boring whole day long :D

games was fun but stupid Si Peng kept wanting to sabotage me. TOO BAD. i said the "why me" when the sbs bombed me and "haha, my name is not Pei Shan" when Jetson said Pei Shan. hurhurhur.

well, there's one cute guy in my class =x

fun hunt was okay lah.

on the whole i hope mo1 dont have a bad impression of me. i hope i can get along well with them, seriously. i want to be more like a friend to them than a senior. well, since im not those kinda who thinks im alot more senior than my juniors.

BBQ was next. jialat. spent $5 on cab. that's cab-sharing with Mike, Jing Jie and Yong Xiang.

William came. well, it was part of a birthday celebration for William, Sam and Xeno. but Xeno was late so they cut the cake without him.

ate some spicy hotdogs. omg. damn spicy. i had to drink alot of water. oh ya, i forgot to mention sabotaging! somehow i dont understand why Wei Ming is always the one who sabo me. like during my mini birthday celebration too. then there was the yucky cream on my face. took a photo of that.

decided to ton at East Coast last minute and all of us rent bicycles. cheap rate. for $7 whole night till 11am. the auntie treat us very nice, providing us with a bottle of water each and even spray mosquito repellent on our arms and legs. *so xing fu*

cycle and cycle and cycle. to Bedok Jetty and then finding breakwaters (is that the correct term? i forgot all my geographic terms). cycled to some eerie places too. and i felt scared cos im like the lead. then when we decided to U-turn, i was the last! haha.

wanted to rest at this shelter. was like parking our bicycles when i saw fragipani (i think wrong spelling) flowers on the floor. i shivered and got scared. i shouldnt even have told Wenna that, cos it made me timid even more. was lucky the guys decided to change place cos they find it too isolated.

then rested at a more crowded area and we sat down playing lame games. Jing Jie introduced the "bang, bang, who died" thingy. omg and i was the 4th last to figure it out. well, they said i was the silent killer cos ive been observing. but actually i got help from Yong Xiang cos he was damn obvious. LOL.

the game went on till ALL of us understood how it goes like. omg. it took like 3 hrs (or less) for us all to figure out. and it was really boring as it goes by. after the games, we decided to teach Teck Wei and Mike to cycle. oh yea! and Teck Wei did it! so happY~~ but Mike haven. hope he jiayou bah.

i guess my entry is pretty boring. but then by the time it was 7am i was damn tired. i was like so dead on my way home. i looked so messy, so ugly, so dirty. my legs were aching like mad. and it was worst when i had to walk to the MRT station. when i board the MRT i was like "PHEW~~ i found a seat! YAY~~" it was like so crowded and i thought there wouldnt be any seat.

as i was really tired, i must say its the first time i slept in the mrt. not really sleep lah. but doze off several times. and im so embarrassed cos my head almost fall on the shoulders of the passengers beside me. my head was like almost falling on the female's shoulder when i came to my senses and saw her smiled at me. so embarrassed. i think i look stupid. cos it's 8+am only.

finally reached home and i took a shower before stopping at my bed. im really lucky today's weather is good. as in raining. so i slept peacefully from 9+am to 4.15. and here i am!

will put up photos later. i already uploaded but i realised the resolutions is 1600x1200! and then it's freaking big! i mean the file size. like 400kb. tried to set the resolutions to 640x480 budden there was some stupid mistakes! i set the y-axis @ -30 and there's the blank space down there. so uglie. had to do it ALL OVER AGAIN. and there's 70+ photos more to go =((

p.s. can i chopp off my legs? they're killing me..

My camera

im feeling so down now. i feel im gonna break down any moment.

the only thing that i had shrimp and save hard for, is lost.

it's the digital camera which i had bought 2 years ago.

not only it's lost. its spoilt too.

i had saved 400 bucks. and now, it's all so old and worn BECAUSE OF MY ELDER SIS.

i hate her. i was younger back then, and 400 bucks was definitely alot to me. the CF card slot cover is broken. and she said she will get it fixed since 98765456789098765434567890 months ago.

when i asked about that again, she simply said "ive got no money"

even the spare batt is lost.

not only that, she had made the camera pouch look horrible enough to make us not want to use it at all.

the bottom line: i just hate her.

last week when i said i need the camera this week, she said she cant find it. a few days back when i said again, she said she still cant find it. i asked again yesterday, i cant find it was still her answer. i asked again today, i cant find it is her answer for the 9876567890987654th time. and now she's going out. and she even asked "why not you help me find".

is she great or is she nice that she offered me to find that little camera in that big and messy and everything-is-everywhere room.

tell me now if you have such a sis who borrows your 400 bucks camera and then spoilt the accessories, use it as if its hers, requiring you to ask her for it when you need it, and blame it on the fact that when one day you argued that she has taken your camera for granted and that she has treated it as hers, she said its cos you didnt ask her for it when you need it.

now who's right who's wrong? i think the answer is pretty obvious.

im sure if i find my camera i will not lend her anymore. not even if she get down on her knees.

if only there's the Ministry of Siblings' Justice in Singapore.

Coach Carter

had a longg day yesterday. stayed out like *counts fingers* 16 hours yesterday. my eyes were very very tired but my mouth could still move by the time i reach home at about 0420. yes. that's morning.

went to school for the briefing and then it headed like 12+. was wondering what to do until 2+ cos i had interview @ Suntec @ 0330. headed there early anyway.

the interview was a waste of time. sighs. they only need temporary weekday workers. doubt i can even make it for any of the day.

well, back to the fun part. after interview, i headed down to Cineleisure to meet Wendy and Berlin (that's the new friend i made a few days back). went straight to Pasta Mania and eat, and again, i cant finish my creamy chicken. perhaps it's very filling bah.

went to buy our tickets for COACH CARTER and initially me and Berlin thought Wendy had bought the 7pm show but then she bought the 930pm one. well, so we rotted till 930 loh.

went to play arcade, shop Mango, take neoprints, ask Julie if she wanna watch COACH CARTER since she had a complimentary ticket. then rushed down to get her ticket.

when she arrived after work, we rushed down to Shilin Taiwan Street Snacks cos she wanna eat the chicken. oh man, it was like a race against time. reached the cinema like 935.

okay, i forgot to mention i saw this guy with a yellow towel over the head. when i turned over and wanted to tell Berlin "hey look at that guy, so attention seeker" but i changed my words cos when he turned over, he's a HANDSOME foreigner! geez. and i saw him walking into the same theatre as us =D

back to the show. COACH CARTER is a VERY NICE show! omg. it reaches my heart, touches my emotions and made my heart skip a beat every time they had a match.

oh ya. basically it's about Ken Carter, who is offered to coach the basketball players in Richmond High School. the boys over there are bad and played basketball the sore loser way. they ended up fighting with the opponents after the match Carter witness. but he had decided to coach them anyway, even though they were a bunch of almost-hopeless kids.

he started by asking them to sign contracts. and in that contract, it states that they have to gain a 2.3 GPA, attend every class, not to be late for practices and that anytime after 2.55 they're considered late etc. some boys went off immediately and one argued with him.

when the one who argued with him see them won the next match, he begged for a place to be back in the team. that's even though he had to do 2500 pushups and 1000 'suicides' for the coach before Friday. he failed anyway. and the coach asked him to leave. but the players helped him with it, and so he's back.

matches continued and they won champion for what match i forgot =P but then those boys failed to attend classes and didnt reach the required GPA. Carter found out, his top blowed off, and decided to lock out the gym and stop matches until the boys had reached their target. the boys retaliated but then they had no choice. they had to study hard. parents came down to complain and one of them suggestted to rip him off of his coach lisence. Carter went up to say some things and said that they dont have to sack him, he'll leave if the board disagrees with what he said.

he got 2 out of 6 votes and off he went. he decided to leave even though the Principal asked him to stay. well, at least the Principal made some sense in the end. she had disagreed to the coach when he asked for the boy's progress report at the beginning.

he went to the basketball court and saw the locks off from the door. and when he went in, he saw the boys with their desks trying to study. one of them said "they want us to play basketball, but they cant make us play. we had decided to finish off where we had started" one of them answered his qns. he had intially kept asking them "what is your deepest fear".

those parts were touching and the boys made some sense out of with Coach had been wanting them to do. not only he wanted them to be good basketball players, he wanted him to be good students too: to get into college.

i supposed he had the same wishes as Miss Chan. dont wonder who is she, she is my Sec Sch Band Conductor. she, also, had state that she wanted us to achieve a 65% overall percentage and if we dont meet her expectations, she will see us personally. well, i never got to see her personally cos my grades were slightly better than what she expected.

through the movie i realised how much effort the coach is putting. he had wanted the better for the boys: to be a good basketball player and a good student as well. but the players mistook the study part and even went on to argue with him. they had, in the end, understood his good intentions and became a useful person. well, i teared the part when the boy's friend had been gunshot dead and previously he was still threatening some people with his gun. that boy (he's with the Afro hairstyle haha) went to the coach and begged him to let him play (he had went off twice) because he was afraid he'd have the same fate as his friend. though the kids didnt win the last match, the one against St Franciso cos they were strong opponents, they didnt made it for only 2 points. they were close to wining. and i think that's an achievement.

okay, i hope my entry isnt getting boring cos im still so high after watching. the movie's season ends today. so by the time people read this, it'd prolly end already. shrugs.

im off! OH NO. IM GONNA BE LATE.

Anime Craze

im getting a little bit crazy now cos i dont know what the hell i pressed and that my entry is gone! oh my god. that was tremendous effort leh! you could have see my expression >.<

lemme start again =/

my holidays were more or less spent on vcds and shopping. throughout the holidays ive catched like 132 episodes of Naruto, 42 episodes of Inuyasha (so far), 12 (or was it 13) episodes of Onegai Teacher, DrumLine, 18 episodes of 海豚湾恋人, 30 episodes of 水月洞天 and what else i forgot liao.

okay. dont wow. i'd rather work and earn money! sighs.

decided to springclean my room later cos i find my table so messy (well, even though it still get messy 1 week after i springclean, shrugs)

will post up the before and after pics of my room tomorrow. that is after my springclean.

i wanna go Ikea and get some stuff which i can sort out my stuff. Ikea, anyone? =/

okay. i'll do all the anime introduction again. it's all tough work ya know sobs.

first it's Azumanga Daioh. cute characters and funny content.



this is Chiyo. cute rite? very innocent. she's a 10-yr-old high school genius



yeap yeap. this is also Chiyo. she has fake ponytails. she even gets a new pair of ponytails as her christmas present! haha.



this is Osaka. she is kinda dim-witted but is innocent. sweet too =D

anyone has Azumanga Daioh anime downloads or vcd? i only caught a glimpse of it @ Laser Flaire. sobs.

next up is Naruto *grins*



Konohamaru! his first appearance is darn funny. darn cute too. adores Naruto :)



Shikamaru! haha. he is intelligent and lazy. cool too! the first to get promoted to Chuunin =D



him and Pakkun, Kakashi's pet.



this is Kakashi! *screams my lungs out* im darn fated with him. my character fits Kakashi when i took the character test and then i got him as a 'boyfriend' when i did the compatibility test! whee~



this is Rock Lee. find him weird. he adores his sensei, Gai, and dresses like him too *goosebumps*



this is Naruto's 'handsomest' pic. haha. the others were his crazy facial expression.



one of his craziest expression! cute rite. LOL.



his best technique. this even made the Third Hokage's nose bled. haha. Hokage refers to the best ninja in the Village of Konoha(leaf).

Inuyasha is next! im sure Wenna and Kailing are looking forward to it. Wendy too!



Inuyasha when he's young. so adorable. but he's hated by humans and despiced by demons. cos he's half-demon, half-human, which meant hanyou in Japanese.


him in cap when he's in Kagome's (modern) world. still sniffing the floor for scents cos he's a dog. wahaha.



well, there're times when he changed into a human cos he's a hanyou. that's Kagome with him.



Miroku when he's young! he's still VERY decent back then. haha.



this is the perverted monk who fakes exocorism when he needs a place to stay. he molests girls and asks them to bear his child. muahaha. that's Miroku!



his special power is the Kazana, it's a curse by Naraku. a wind tunnel like a black hole.



this is Sango, a demon exterminator. seeks Naraku to avenge for her village people. pretty rite? rumoured to like Miroku *grins*



Kirara, Sango's pet. has been loyal to Sango and is very useful.



Shippo! always beaten by Inuyasha. small and timid. but is kinda matured.



Myoja jiji. helpful in times. but always run away when there's trouble. is a flea.



Rin! Sesshomaru, Inuyasha's brother, has taken good care of her. Sesshomaru used to be an evil man who killed humans. but Rin has changed him =DD

no pics of Sesshomaru cos the website's down.

so long for my entry =D my lunch awaits me =))

Worries

Hakuna Matana means no worries for the rest of the day.

but then i've got worries worries worries troubling me.

oh ya, my Brother's gonna get married already. but i dont know when. he and my future sister-in-law has already applied for a flat already. the good news is, their house is great, well, according to my mum.

and the bad thing is, we might move in with them. it's supposed to be good news. i mean, a new home. the reason why we might move in with them is cos my mum think it'll be unnecessary to still live in my current house cos it's too big. as in, all of us are still big already. sooner or later we'll marry our soulmates and she and my dad will live alone. so no use for such a big flat.

the bad thing is, i might have to share a room with my elder sis! yes, that is together with my younger sis too. im not complaining i cant have a room of my own. im just complaining the fact that i might have to share a room with her.

the good thing is, she doesnt really get along with my brother. so she might just rent her own room outside.

i truly hope that she will do that.

and i hope if she does that, she wont open her mouth and ask my parents for money. i think she's old enough to support herself. for goodness sake, she's already 22. it's not like she's in university and she needs help for her school fees. if that is so, i'd understand.

but NO she's not any U students.

i just think she's the sister no one would want to have. yes, that's just how bad it is.

cut the flat thingy and i shall revert the attention to my current life.

geez. oh ya, im so in love with 天国的嫁衣 OST.

it's simply sooooooooooooo nice.

i love this quote: 承诺常常很像蝴蝶 美丽地飞 盘旋然后不见

i think it's so true. it means "promises are like butterflies. flying beautifully and then disappear". somewhat like broken promises. i believe all of us made at least one broken promise before. well, if we cant fulfil the promise, we shouldnt even make it.

i wont make any promises if i cant keep them.

not anymore :D

Wendy's first day of work

Wendy started working yesterday already. alright, she keeps complaining =/ i think the reason to why she keeps complaining is simply cos she has never worked in the f&b industry @ all. hence the complaints. but i think if you worked in the f&b industry before, anything ahead of you is nothing.

i haven start working, but gotta kinda disheartened by her reactions. sighs. i just hope she would wanna stay longer loh. she said maybe she'll just work for one week and then get her pay and go off. shrugs.

she works in the kitchen mah. thats why she dont really like it.

somehow i hope i work outside the kitchen. i mean, i'll be half studying and half working mah. so working in the kitchen might be TOO tough for me. i'll look damn shagged when i attend school.

well, she's working again today and tomorrow. yesterday was like so terrible because she said the oven and the dishwasher spoilt or something like that. the others also said it's the 'terriblest'. i just pray hard today would be better for her or before i could start my first day there, she'd already quit liao =/

oh ya. while messaging her today, i sent the message to the wrong person. oh freaks. this was what happened:

after like 30mins or so, i received a call from a private number..

Anonymous: hello? you called?
Me: huh? i didnt call your number!
Anonymous: is this 9*******?
Me: Yes.
Anonymous: you sent me a message!

Me: i accidentally press wrong number..
Anonymous: WHY PRESS WRONG NUMBER!
Me: press wrong number, press wrong number LAH!
Anonymous: but why you press wrong number!

Me: ACCIDENTALLY LAH!

-i hung up the phone-

so freak right. the reason is because i listened to too much of the prank calls liao. and either the caller or the recipent is an indian. SURPRISELY, he's an indian too. it just freaked me out and the first thing that came into my mind was the prank calls.

oh my. it's just an accidentally wrong number what. what the hell.

Job hunt = No luck

basically went for a job hunt with Wendy and Zi Qian. no luck. Fish & Co asked to email our resume but i cant find the HQ email @ their site. sad.

tomorrow going down to Queensway with Wendy. its been a very long time since i last step in there.

oh ya, met Ali today cos he wanted all the Yuhua recordings. funny. talked alot with him and Wendy. the usuals lah. we were all talking about band stuff. missed him man. nothing much has really changed. except that he's taller than me now and has shorter hair. haha.

hmm me and Wendy went to eat @ The Coffee Bean today. yummyy~~~~

yup. had Brownie and Ice Blended Mocha. haha the cashier who served us was down comical. making me and Wendy blur.

the first question i asked was "hmmm, the Ice Mocha Latte right, what is it? how does it taste like? nice?" haha. he had nothing to say cos he haven tried that before. then i said nevermind and ordered two Ice Blended Mocha. then Wendy said we want Bosten Nut Brownie, he went like "WHAT? what did you say?". "she said Boston Nut Brownie" was my reply, then he said "what again?". so this time i just replied "BROWNIE". he claimed there's two type of Brownie, oh well, just finding leisure out of his work. haha.

made us laughed loh. cheeky fellow. haha.

I hate rotting!

carpe diem!

that's the new word i learnt today. it means "seize the day"!

back to what i did today. rotted around my home and then left my house @ 1715. met Bryan to pass him Naruto vcds and headed to Dohby Ghaut to meet Wenna for the workshop.

reached DG kinda early so i decided to walk around Plaza Singapura while waiting for Wenna. walked and talked and then decided we dont need exactly one hour to search for where Singapore History Museum is. so we left PS @ 1900.

walked and reached our destination. to our horror, we realised the building is renovating! omigosh. freaked out like ants on the hot pan. asked the Uncle whom we saw and realised it's gonna be @ Clarke Quay. -gasps-

just took a cab without knowing much about our destination. called Bryan for help. haha. he helped us check out that it's @ Riverside Point. reached there 10 mins late and we're lucky the host hasnt arrived.

so the talk started. the talk was given by Jack Neo and he taught us how to actually get inspirations for scriptwriting (though it was more like listening to his past life experience). learnt quite alot. he's seriously a humorous person but very mean. i mean the way he describes the people around him.

after the talk, we walked around Clarke Quay aimlessly. exploring Clarke Quay and i had wanted to show her where is Anderson Bridge. ended up telling her "there! that's Anderson Bridge!" whenever we pass by a bridge and then realised it wasnt the bridge i mentioned.

finally saw it and found Victoria Concert Hall.

oh ya, while we were walking down the streets with rows of pubs, we saw many unique pubs. one of which leaves a deep impression in us is Eski Bar (or did i spell wrongly?) well, it's like the typical bar but one thing special about it is the temperature inside. though we didnt went in, it's obvious from the outside that it's freezing cold inside cos we can see water vapours forming on the glass walls. and the guy who came out of the pub was wearing a jacket. it seems fun inside. well, i mean, it's so unique. i think i should visit it some day.

so we went Mac and eat and headed back home.

that's all for my day.

another round of job hunting tomorrow. -boringg-

oh ya. i've got some health facts which i think everyone ought to know.

Health Fact #1
on a warm day, bathe with warm water and vice versa.

why?
because when you bathe with warm water, your pores open up and absorbs moisture from the surrounding hence you'll feel cooler when you step out of the bathroom.. and when you bathe with cold water, your pores close and prevent moisture.

Health Fact #2
using mosquito coil is equivalent to smoking up to 30 cigarrettes.

amazing rite? i came across a newspaper article which proved Health Fact #2. forgot the reason though.

Second semester module results

greeted by my semester results the first thing when i woke up. the good news is, ive offically passed my semester 2! the bad news is, my results arent as glamourous as semester 1 =(((

oh well, am just glad ive passed the whole thing. here comes my results:

BUSINESS INFORMATION SYSTEMS C+
EVENT-DRIVEN PROGRAMMING A
MULTIMEDIA AUTHORING C+
OPERATING SYSTEMS C+
ORAL COMMUNICATION C+
PROBLEM SOLVING AND PROGRAMMING II A+
SPORTS AND WELLNESS PX

okay, prolly many of you here reading this dont know what these modules are about. hmm PX means pass, only for that module it's graded like that.

results has shown, im more of a programming person than a theory person.

conclusion: i need more programming modules! (except for MMA lah!!) okay, please dont kill me if programming modules are driving you crazy =)))))

almost forgot to add.. i truly hope all of my friends around me pass their modules as well. i really cant bear to see them repeating their modules =// it'll be really sad especially if that module is gonna slow down our graduating year.. i hope all i hear is good news from them. *prays hard*

Tired

worked in NP for like two days liao. am pretty tired. supposedly i should replace Hogan on Thursday, who knows there werent enough people and he had to work too. the job's very slack lah. made new friends too.. people like Elisa, Amanda, Alica, Mad, Razi and the list goes on.

well, this job wouldnt be enjoyable without eye candies. LOL. *grins* dudes like Luke (omg, he's cute), Peter and Kai Kiang (okay lah, decided to add his name in. hees). and all of them are friendly too. ended up working today also cos there werent enough people. hmm, why not? its a job where you get to talk and get paid. wheeS~~

okays. so we (me, Amanda & Elisa) crapped superr duperr loads with Kai Kiang today. he's kinda bored lah. promoting IBM lappies and stuff. understandable. i supposed the 3 of us were slacking in a pretty obvious way cos some Dell and IBM friendly peeps kept coming over and chit-chat with us. usually they'd start with "stand here and do nothing" and then shake their heads LOL.

cute lah. nice job overall. well, abit embarrassed on the first day cos Mad approached Peter and told him i think he's cute! oh man. after that i dont even start to look @ him loh. geez. but he's friendly also lah.

knocked off earlier than yesterday and then went in to ka jiao Kai Kiang. hur hur. dont know why i keep shooting him. he's shootable lah. lol. and then Peter came over and crapped too. haha. he was telling us he told this customer to check out the prices in Sim Lim if he dont believe the lappies are cheap and god knows that customer actually went to Sim Lim and check. he came back and talked to Peter. ended up not buying IBM lappy and even complaint he had to meet his girlfriend @ 630. like what the hell loh -_-;

tsk tsk

went for job hunt yesterday. shucks man. ended up Cheryl got the DCP job. sighs. the thing is, ive been job hunting for like 3 freaking days and i got no jobs. and Cheryl went out with me to find a job for fun and she got it.

i might get the job too. cos she helped me to call back and asked. but the thing is, till now i havent get a call yet. are they still rescheduling the rooster or have they forgotten about it? shrugs. felt like calling and ask.

nevermind. i just hope its cos they had to reschedule and is not done with that yet. =//

well, watched Install yesterday and i must say.. THE SHOW IS FREAKING BORING. omg. its like. f*** (words sensored). please do not watch it if you plan to. seriously, it sucked like hell. no kick, no good storyline, no nothing. freaks. i better take note who wrote that script and never watch shows written by him/her.

nothing better to write except for the no-job-status. sighs.

Girlosophy

Knowing what a girl wants

Love the girl in your heart, not in your mind. If you base your relationship on feelings, it will fail for there are ups & downs in feelings. Girls are there to be loved, not toyed around.

Love her for who she is. Don't even think about changing any bit about her. 6 billion people in this world & 6 billion different personalities. She's special & she will stay that way. You change any part of her, you'll change her forever. Don't substitute her for anyone else, they are just unique in their own ways.

Love whole-heartedly. She sacrificed a lot for you so you'd better really treassure her. She could have just got up & date a so much more dashing guy in town but she chose you instead all because of love. So love her guys, not play with her. Don't just get the girl to beg you to stay or whatsoever. If you're with her, love her.

Don't cause a strain in the relationship, you'll end up loving each other out of pity or charity, that's not respecting love at all. Respect love the way it is & everything will be the best it can be. I've been there & I know how it feels.

Don't expect perfection from her. She's the only one in the world & she's done the best she could.

Like another girl while you're in a relationship? Then I think it's time you remain single for a while. Don't go around breaking girls' hearts, it's the most tragic thing to do.

Tell the truth, never hide anything from her. If you want her to tell you everything, do the same.

Don't go calling other girls "honey" or "darling", how would it feel if your girl calls other guys the same way? Be faithful, enough is enough.

Socialise only when you're single. You socialise & flirt around is to get the girl of your dreams. Get it over when she's already yours, don't ask for more.

It never kills to be romantic. Think, be flexible. Getting that diamond ring isn't the only gift for her. Be realistic, she's human & she lives life just like you. Something sweet & simple always get the job done.

Money doesn't exist between couples, it's the love.

Never promise her that you'll love her forever because your forever might end the next day. Love her as if each day is the last.

Sweet talking only applies for singles, not for attached guys. Do that & you'll really break your girl's heart.

It isn't good being too well-known too, it'll give her a sense of insecurity. Remember, INSECURITY.

Promise her & make sure you never break the promise. Swear to her & make sure you live up to your word. Pledge your love to her & her alone.

Loving her is giving her your heart to break it but trusting her not to. Same goes for her, giving u her heart means allowing u to break it and trusting u not to. Instead, she'll cherish it & protect it. Should'nt you do the same thing as well? That's love.

Give her your heart, your life, your everything. Lay down your life & prepare to die for her when the need arises. But stay strong & live through another day, she can never live without you.

Never, ever walk out of her life. She won't just cry her heart out & carry on living as per normal, she'd die.

It's her heart that you've broken, how would you ever know how she feels?

Winning a girl's heart isn't the final victory. Don't leave her once you've won her love. Love her all the way till the end of time, love her till marriage, love her till old age, love her till death. If you can love her till the end of time, you've earned the honor & respect for you've truly loved her.

She chose you because she believes that you can fulfil your promise. Win her heart back & love her all over again.

[edit] dedicated to all guys out there. cherish the one close to you and never let her go. ya hear me? [/edit]

Swing Girls

im sooooooo glad to announce that the exams are overr!! yeap, and Cheryl asked me out last minute. saw her sms when the exam is over.

oh yes. forgot to mention, im soooooo glad that i memorise the whole os thingy! and am glad that i know how to do majority of it. wheeeee!! now i can enjoy with peace :D

met Cheryl @ somerset mrt station and i finally watch the movie Swing Girls! i must say its really very moltivating.. okay. so im starting to miss band abit.. but then =//.

the show is really fantastic. and i must say japanese bands can really play well. when the music festival in the movie was on and then sound of a band was heard, omg, i must say my hair stood. the clarinet sound were fabulous and familiar tunes were heard. oh yea, Swing Girls and A Boy rock the entire stage with the famous song "In The Mood" im so in love with jazz right now..

then met up Julie for dinner and crapped abit. im so happy that i didnt bring my card out or i'll be spending money again (:

oh before i forgot, something really hilarious happened when i was in the train with Wenna. she was like telling me "in the past, men were very cruel. they "yan" guys" i went like "HUH? "YAN"? WHAT'S "YAN"? "YAN" AS IN MARINATE? MARINATE GUYS?" i was abit loud and then Wenna couldnt control herself. she was like laughing and then trying hard to tell me not to talk so loud cos "yan" means chopping off their d*cks to be an enunch. okay im so sorry lah. haha. i seriously dont know mah. LOL.

so my day went happy cos exams are finally over :D

almost forgot to mention that there's been a number of aussies tagging my board singing praises of my blog. well, im indeed flattered. hope to make friends with them :P

Haivanas slippers

exchange concert in the morning. and then ended like 12 plus and went for lunch with Wendy, Cheryl, Yeo Lin, Mislia, Ali, Li Jia and Julie. then we thought of going to Singapore Expo for the Adidas warehouse. went there with Wendy, Cheryl, Julie, Carmen and Yeo Lin.

before i continue with what happened the rest of the day, i wanna say i feel so happy seeing Ali. the person i missed the most is him.. and then chatted with Wei Wen and Liana too. how i miss those peeps. regretted not interacting with my section and left for lunch instead.. but i heard there's gonna be a section outing this Friday. not sure whether i wanna go cos im having exams soon. sighs..

so headed down to Expo and then found out we got cheated! there arent really nice things there. and then i even had to deposit my bag! hmpH! i feel so insecure without my bag loh >.< when i go and retrieve it. the guy @ the counter serving me almost shocked me to death. i showed him my card number. it says "16" and he should bring me my Adidas bag. who knows, he looked @ me showing me an Carrefour plastic bag! oh my! how did my $60 bag turned into a bag which dont even cost 6c? haaa. he was so blur loh. and all of our reactions were o.0" then he was very paiseh.

headed down to Heeren and got my Haivanas slippers liao. got pink instead cos according to Jason (the guy working there) he think pink suits me better. he was also very blur loh. when Wendy and Cheryl asked him to choose a suitable color for me, he went like "which one?" and Wendy corrected him saying "is who" haaa. then 2 of them went off looking for the one which might suit me. who knows Jason got confused and tried to show them loh. and they went "is HER". he was also so paiseh.

a day of blur guys. lol.

went to take pictures with Julie, Wendy and Cheryl. man, it looked so nice (im not trying to praise us). all of us did stupid faces except for one. and then the effect was darn nice. love it man.. cant upload cos no scanner ): Cheryl you see this?

Wendy then left us after dinner @ Kobayashi, Cineleisure cos she had something on. then Julie, Cheryl and i suddenly have an urge to shop. went alot of shops. then each of us bought a skirt from Mango each. they went to try on bikinis -.-; not that i have a thing against bikinis but cos i dont have confidence to wear it loh.

just kept walking and walking and walking until we decided it was kinda late and then we had nothing to shop either. so took the north east line and the way back to JE. haaaa. met Nisa. whee! how much i missed her too! was looking so tired cos of prolonged wearing of contact lenses. and then she called me. asked me when's the competition and stuff and then her bus came.. i really miss her too..

then surprisely, i met Wendy while waiting for the bus. its like so coincidence cos it was so late le leh! chatted a while and then her bus came. so it was time for me to go home too.

Heart broken now

things arent going right in my life these days. i hate my life!

i appear happy and sociable outside, but deep inside ive got many problems! i feel my mood now is going downhill day by day. i feel im emotionally weak now. very very weak. my tears would just drop for minor things that happens. why!

when will this torture stop?

now, who have i offended?

Happy day!

late for school as usuals ;p and then i realised nowadays i will wake up with stomachache. sighs. dont know what's going on in my stomach -.-;

and then met him to pass him the rewritable cds for him to burn the SpongeBob SquarePants movie. kinda stupid of me. he gave me correct directions to where he is but then i got my directions wrong! ~~.~~ he said to turn right after i reach the level. but i turned left and walked all the way in. until i walk back to the staircase area and found him just near the staircase. omg.

well, he sounded so sweet on the phone. heh.

and then headed to meet Cheryl @ Bukit Batok MRT station loh. talked alot cos its been a longgggg time since we catch up with one another. first stop was Bugis. bleah. went to temple and bai bai. and then i prayed for my family's health and safety. also prayed that things would go smoothly for him too =xxx..

heee and i bought a FreshBox tee. felt kinda sinful too. cos i ate ToriQ and Tako Pachi.

this time it's really such a coincidence. haaa. met Fai, Wei Ming and the guys from my class. heh. Mike went like "this time really very qiao liao" cos we always play the "eh, so qiao" game. bleah. didnt realise they were there until Cheryl told me so. not that she knows them but she found them staring @ me thats why. heees.

next stop was Heeren. cos she wanted to try on an Adidas shirt which was available there. its nice. she kept wanting me to try BUT it cost 69.90. almost the price of my bag! so i resisted! xP

went to Hyatt hotel next. oh my. its so darn grand and the service, is of cos, super good lah! Cheryl wanted to meet her cousins mah, named Sue-Ann and Dao Wei(hope i didnt spell wrongly). well, Dao Wei look like one of my cousins. woah. and he's another pink lover. on the other hand, Sue-Ann is a sweet looking gal. with HUGE EYES. heee.

took some pictures with Wendy and Cheryl. yeap. Wendy met us later cos i threatened her to. xP.

then went to tour around Singapore with Wendy. how? by taking the bus back home. haaaaa.

had a nice day on the overall. wheee. am really happy cos its been a very longgggggggggggg time since i see many taggers already. whee whee whee!

to Esther (ugly girl xP): i miss yaaaa! so mean of you to forget my link. hmph!!

to Bryan: yeap sorry forgot your link cos that was an old set of links i used. xP. will add it up somehow later okay?

to Pei Wei (if you ever come back to visit again): i promise to go back to band this sat okay? i miss all of you guys too. will be back with Wendy bah. hee. take caree ya.

to Jesper & Xian Zhi: thanks for your caring (: my ulcer should be okay bah. i hope. heeee.

to Zaki: so mean of you not to leave any message of concern! hmph! to think im friends with ya for like 2 donkey years compared to Jesper, whom i never really talk face to face before, and Xian Zhi, whom im not that close with. shame on you! hmph!

so long, guys (:

Let bygones be bygones

have decided to strike out those crude words ive blogged these few days. decided to just forget everything. quits now?

well, had a very bad stomachache in the morning. i dont know what it was. was it gastric pain or was it what? but all i did was i dissolved a carbon pill in cold water and drank it. next minute i was on my toiletbowl (:

the pill reacted fast ya. and all the smelly substances that made me feel so miserable came all out @ once.

okay. what am i doing, grossing everybody out with my lao sai.

anyways its pretty obvious that ive changed my layout once again. i think ive been doing too much of copyright already. ripping pictures outta websites and then adding some words on it and calling it "another creation of shann*" hmm. what have i been doing all these while? i thought i hate copyrighting?

yes yes! Wenna! you stole my codes! for the colorful drop down menu! ~~.~~ already voliating the copyright laws! okay lah. im a nice girl, i'll let you off okay?

my expressions outside is so fake. deep inside, im feeling so darn paranoid. everything hasnt been going right. i just wanna lead a simple life.

the feeling of paranoid is just coming back to me. negative thinkings ruining my life.. geez! how can i live a life like that?

*screams* someone please bring me out from all these paranoid feelings!

okay. my english is getting abit cranky nowadays too.

almost forgot to ask. anyone has a special and effective remedy to cure the ulcer which hurts me so much? how can i eat my favorite food (usually unsuitable for ulcers) and @ the same time heal my ulcer? eeks. my tongue tells me its getting worst ):

Provoked or not provoked?

you mentioned you wont get affected by what i write in my blog. but why the capital letters? this shows your angered. just admit it. your just contradicting yourself. just admit that your provoked (:

i was just being nice telling you how we feel about you. its up to you to accept it. since you dont wanna accept the fact, be it then. gradually you'll lose your friends.

at least im not a coward. i dare to write how i felt when i read your blog. loser.

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anyways. i dont wanna waste my time talking to some people. hmmm. had a nice and bad day today. just felt that today isnt the shopping day for me. met up with Wendy for some bag hunt. supposedly i planned to go to Orchard, then Bugis, then Queensway but ended up shopping in Orchard only.

went to Far East and tried on some FreshBox tee. found one i really like BUT that was the last piece. the rest also were like last piece! but the quality of the last piece aint good. sobx.

then went to see New World Order instead. bought the one same as Wendy. wanted to buy S size cos Wendy said it will shrink when i wash it but the designs for S sizes arent nice. so bought the XS size instead. and guess what! i then realised i forgot to bring my nets card! omg! i was like freaked out. lucky i brought the extra allowance my mum and dad gave me.

my moods were dampened by then and things didnt get better when i went into the Adidas shop @ Heeren. i saw a bag i really like! i was lik sobbing in my heart. but things got better when i saw .......... he told me he was going to Orchard with his friends. was like in distraught when i couldnt find him (alright i admit i went hunting for him) but then when i thought hopes were giving up on me, i saw him @ the balcony @ the level below where i am! heez. went crazy.

i was like in dilemma loh. i mean. i was like wanting to see him but then when i found him i just wanna hide =xxx

then found out the 2-pin-plug guy was his friend! the one named Shane! omg. i was like so shocked and kept laughing. and yea, singapore is sooooooooo small. just a red dot in the world map. lol.

met Bryan @ Jurong East cos the first thing in my mind was to buy the bag. i mean. i really want to change a bag really badly and im so afraid the shop will be closed by the time i go back home and get back again.

but im really glad i went back. went back to Heeren and then found out the bag was sold out! today is really my unlucky day(apart seeing him, that is xP)!! the guy was so nice to help me check out the nearest outlet. whether it have the bag not. yeap, then went to CentrePoint loh.

well, Wendy was like complaining alot but then i thank her for really helping me man. yeap, she got me hooked on the bag. she is @ fault too xP.

so she came to my house, blogged and everything and went home. so hungry now. but then its too late for me to eat anything liao. heees.

hereby i wanna thank Wendy for bearing with me the whole day (: and Bryan for lending me the money (so sorry to bother!!) thanks alot. a friend in need is a friend indeed (:

Warning: Read If You Can Take It

i just gonna speak up for myself now.

firstly, i would like you (i suppose you should know im refering to you) to ask yourself what has really happened. you mentioned that i dislike you and you dislike me. but wait a minute, think about why the hatred even got into my heart. think real carefully.

if i didnt remember wrongly, it all started in semester 1 when i dont know what the hell have i done/or said to provoke you, my royal highness. and then i started feeling all so miserable cos you've been outcasting for like god-knows how long it has been. do you know how i feel? i supposed you know how sucky it felt right.

but the thing is, right now, i mean this instance, think about what happened a few days ago. think about monday. what did you do. what happened? she was so kind to teach you about PSP2 and there you go, getting all so moody and even spoke to her in an unreasonable voice. i believe you also wouldnt like it either.

i mean, picture this: you are being nice teaching your friend what they dont know and they spoke to you in an unreasonable tone. almost like you had offended them. will you feel pissed?

secondly, what has happened a few days back? yes, i admit i did say you werent trying hard. and yet i helped both of them with their work but not you. but think again, that day in the classroom, did you even open your golden mouth to ask? i can now say the answer is NO. she did ask me, so i helped. and then the other she came to look @ what i was doing because she also has the problem.

get the picture now? i know you might have thought that of all people i help, there wont be a place for you. you might have heard i sent my program to him. and that it was unfair. think back again. when you asked me for my program way long ago, did i send you? if memory had failed you, please look into your received file.

yes, it wasnt a complete program. but you asked for it so i sent you. did i ever ill-treated you? i dare to say no. when you asked me about the functions and all the SUPER basic stuff, i started to get abit pissed. do you know why?

think about the day all of us stayed in school to do. she wasnt feeling well, so she was resting on the table. both of us were trying hard. and you stopped trying cos you said you're stuck. if you want to know what's the meaning of the word "Trying" in my dictionary, try recalling how hard both me and her try.

get my meaning now?

besides that, i know you cherish both of them ALOT. but dont you think sometimes your actions are too much? i supposed you thought that since you are so close to them that they wouldnt mind your actions. im sad to say, you are wrong.

many times your actions sent us all pissed off. but we kept it in our heart. recall the day in orchard. you ran away like that. were you trying to advertise for the movie "Hide And Seek"? i supposed not. all of us know every bit of your character already. you need attention. you expected all of us would get panicked and then look for you. but you were wrong. we still enjoyed ourselves. we didnt say out for the sake of you thinking too much.

back to what happened on thursday. and think real carefully. why when you were crying, eyes all swollen and sitting alone in the class, none of us (or should i say them) approached you? reason being: they(we) cant take it anymore. we no longer have the mood to cater to your needs. if you think your some royal highness please stay out of Singapore cos there aint any castle for you to live in.

ive read your blog. i felt so hurt. cos in the first place, i had never hated you. you were the one who implanted hatred in me and yet you sounded like right from the start we hated each other.

all of us have character defects. but i think you have a serious attitude problem. what will all your actions lead you to? yeah, your words in your blog hurt me big time. i teared once again i dont know why im doing that cos right from semester 1 ive sworn not to cry for this childish matter anymore. but im just hurt cos you think your one big princess and needs us all to serve you.

i had thought right from the start perhaps all your childish actions are due to my presence. i believed you think im like "snatching" your friends. but please, do you think your still in primary school? still got the snatching and stuff? if you think so, im sorry to say i dont want to join you in your childish world. i didnt deliberately "snatch" them. now listen carefully, the reason to why sometimes we 3 rather be together is because we feel happier.

they felt no freedom with you around. we felt comfortable together. all of us were ourselves when we were together. with you around, we need to wear a different mask. we cant show our true selves. now do you see the problem?

none of us dared to approach you cos we know too well you would prolly have some depression. but think again, are the both of them really so important to you that you wont mind doing anything for them? eeks. that sounds like some pure lesbianism to me. and please, they have their own freedom okay. they're not yours.

if you think all three of you will become friends for life that now you treat them like gem, i can say your wrong. friends do last forever. but not close friends. one thing is, all of us live in different locations in singapore. the closeness among all of us, i believed, will only last the entired poly life. so please stop acting so childish.

and lastly, i wanna thank you for writting that entry. i teared. yea, for some silly childish people. but through that, i got to see my true friends. through that, i know i wasnt wrong. nobody blamed me. you were the only one who blamed me. i know from the start you are blaming me but nobody thinks so. this meant i know you better (omg, i dont want to know you better. not somebody who doesnt care about me).

i also got to see who really cared for me. @ least when im crying myself @ home, my msn was kinda flooded with people who send their regards to me. and you were crying miserable that day and no one seemed to care. see it? the problem is not in me (:

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feel so relieved now. thanks for all who cared about me yesterday night. i feel so much better writing it out now.

yea, and once again, if my entry affects anyone, im sorry for it. i mean, after all its my blog, i get to say what i feel inside. ive got to stand up for my rights, and others' rights :D

The unlucky mouth

the whole day was all about PSP2, PSP2 and more PSP2. did some debuggings for Wenna and Kai Ling but then it didnt work. so was kinda worried about it. then Yong Xiang came to help but his final solution was to do it the way i did it. hmmm. haa.

and then i was the first to finish my printing, i mean, to get my materials ready to hand in and for the walkthrough later.

then 3 of us were like sitting @ the canteen for quite long. walked to Co-Op to by envelop and blank cd. were almost @ the memorable place for Kai Ling and all of us felt worried cos we were wearing slippers which has not-so-good-friction soles. while we were almost reaching the library except for a stair away, i went like "be careful orh. the last step is very very very slippery" god knows that next second Kai Ling was sitted on the floor in a beautifully feminine pose -_-;

went to the toilet cos her shirt was dirtied. thank god she wore a shirt which she can wear it inside out, outside in. maybe the shirt was worn for a special purpose. hmmm.

while we were strolling all the way to square @ 31, i thought about what time the walkthrough is when my watch reads 2.30. then i went like "PSP2 walkthrough is @ 315 rite? but you all still have to do the test plan and print out your documents rite?" then both of them went hay wire -_-;

were so kan cheong and stuff when the printer just dont map. i guess its prolly cos alot of us did the last minute printing work and the network was darn lousy. so Wenna and Kai Ling had to take turns to print their materials. and i was like the messenger. hmmm. managed to reach the exam hall @ 325 LOL.

the paper went like feelingless for me? i just did it calmly. abit like not using my brain. it wasnt like i know how to do nor was it like i dont know how to do. i dont know how to explain that feeling. no confidence i can score well neither =//

Unspoken Feelings

first and foremost, i would like to express my inner feelings. i wont care how this entry will affect anyone. cos there's this feeling inside of me dying to get out.

some unpleasant things has happened these days, dampening our moods and stuff. most importantly, we're facing an assignment deadline and assignment walkthrough tomorrow.

i would like to say that i believe everyone who is in my course would feel stressed. and that applies to me too.

the assignment half done and stuff, makes all of us panick. but the thing is, im only more willing to help someone who has tried alot.

im not trying to sound like im some programming pro but what im trying to say is, i hope that someone understand the situation. also, i dont mean to hurt the feelings of someone.

because of some emotional torment, that someone felt down and moody, up to the state of not talking to us. all of us understood what happened, and how the situation is like. how that someone is feeling/thinking. but.. alot of similiar incidents has happened so many times and that made us all felt sick and tired. hense sorry for the neglect.

we dont mean to do anything. in fact, we didnt do anything. but i hope that someone would think thoroughly. i mean, dont let emotions torment her feelings. cos that someone thinks too much and i seriously think its not our actions to cause it to happen. its more like her emotions caused it to happen.

a bit frustrated and stuff. but i dont wanna care so much. i hope such things will not happen. i mean.. please.. such feelings are terrible.

always the majority's fault

next up im gonna say something true:

has anyone ever felt that whatever things happen, its always the majority's fault? i mean. when your own clique quarrel cos of some terrible misunderstandings, and that send someone all tears and sobbing and stuff, from an outsider's view, its always "it must be the clique's fault".

i mean its natural to see things like that. just like when someone gets left out in a group, people would naturally think that the group had deliberately leave that someone out perhaps cos of something.

but then again, its always not right to judge it that way.

oh right. im gonna stop this entry cos i dont really know what the hell im talking about.

The truth

somehow i feel i should really blog on my personal feelings. due to alot of circumstances, there had been some struggling in my heart to whether i should just speak out my feelings. hmmmmm.

Howl's Moving Castle

its sunday again and guess what, i went out to meet Wendy to watch Howl's Moving Castle. a nice show indeed. Howl is so handsome. and the show is funny. haha. alot of parts made the whole cinema laugh together.

yea, and i treated my younger sister (she also went to watch) and Wendy popcorn and drink. enjoyed the show throughout and the ending song is nice.

met up with my ma later and to eat Seoul Garden. haha. okay lah. met my old colleages: people like Hafidz, Li Hwei (omg) and Naz. saw a few new faces though. and saw the "chuan shuo zhong de" Aisah (the manager whom, like all of us, dont like Li Hwei). sad to say lah.

haha. when i asked Hafidz how's Li Hwei, he was like.. no comments. lucky arh. cos just nice she walked behind him.

another manager of mine, Shannah, gave birth already. dont really like her also. cos she became evil =// she had shot gun marriage =x

but then the baby is cute larh. very cute. haha. missed the old times there. how we use to complain about the work, how we use to chat when we ate supper @ night, how we use to laugh @ one another when any of us fall down. lol.

the chairs were changed and then uniform too. @ least it looked so much nicer now :) hope all of them are doing fine now :)

A Moment to Remember

a pretty long entry ahead. please bear with it xD

met Wenna and Kai Ling @ Somerset MRT. then showed directions to Taka to the Canadian tourist named Grace. a very friendly person. first stop in Heeren was Fossil shop cos i wanna buy a Fossil watch then browsed around and got one i really like. $138 was the price. my hard earned money. gotta work during the holidays liao.

then Theresa and Jian Qi met us and so we went to HMV for a walk. then went hunting for Kenneth's present. walked here and there and found a few nice tees. settled on the blue one in 77th street. haha. the guy serving us is cute. kinda punk also. small size de.

it was so funny loh. me, Wenna and Kai Ling couldnt decide the size of Kenneth. either the tee which is within our budget is too small or has no size. how did we actually estimate his size? HAA. we used the non-living model -.-; i supposed the guy who served us find it amusing. cos he was like laughing also.

then Wenna abit not happy with the model's hair cos too long (i think they used a female's wig instead) then i tried to adjust the fringe cos she said the fringe is too long liao. it gave her the temptation to trim it. when i adjust it the first time, it seemed like they glued the wig to the model liao loh. who knows when i go and adjust it with force, the wig almost drop on the floor! omg. haha. so paiseh.

got the blue tee liao and then went Bloomington to buy paper bag. then to Taka to eat.

rushed all the way down to CauseWay Point cos me, Wenna and Kai Ling wanna watch A Moment to Remember. Kai Ling walk so fast sia. as i still owe them 5 bucks each, i gave Kai Ling a 50 bucks to go and rush and buy the tickets. in matter of seconds, she disappeared in the crowds.

called us when she bought the tickets and the timing was just right: me and Wenna were in the lift reaching 7th floor liao.

when we went in the cinema, the show has already started. prolly like 5 mins. i guess the part we left out was when the lead actress bump into the lead actor bah. the show was kinda boring @ the beginning budden the sad part came. it was the part when all 3 of us teared. and the moment when we heard people behind us unzipping their bags to search for packs of tissue. should have sought Wendy's advice to bring tissue liao.

wet the sleeve of my jacket instead. it was seriously so sad. tears just kept dropping from my eyes. tears just keep collecting in my eyes and even without any blink, the tears will just flow down my cheeks. yes, that's just how sad it is.

and for the peeps who are reading this: I STRONGLY RECOMMEND A MOMENT TO REMEMBER if you had already forgotten to cry.

when the show ended, i saw everyone had teary eyes. but for me, i had swollen eyes. that's how much i had cried. it was so sad.

the only movie in which made me cried like tomorrow'll never come. even better than WindStruck and Home Run.

bought some earrings and then headed to the BBQ place. the atmosphere was kinda weird cos there was little people we know there: close to none. then ate abit and then waited to cut the cake.

in the process of waiting, i tried to play with kids. who knows, one actually cry T.T i didnt mean to do that. i didnt make her cry. she was just scared. not me okay. everyone tried to play with the other 3 year old. but she was really so dao. she was like ignoring us when we tried to talk to her. only when i used the tic tac toe to play with her =) she only talked to me =D

what was even amazing was, she had accidentally knocked her head @ the playground cos of me. but she didnt totally 'hate' me =)

happy happy. then reach home @ abt 10. that's like 12 hours out whole day. tireddd~~~~~~

but gonna stay online though my eyes are pretty tired after all the tear dropping moments in the cinema.

this is the Fossil watch i bought:

Relationships

my friend has been down with relationship matters these few days. and my friend stated that a single life is lonely. i admit that its kinda lonely but such things cant be rush. i mean, i cant just ask any Tom, Dick or Harry to be my boyfriend. like that, i'll be changing my boyfriends in a weekly basis already.

what's the use of getting into a relationship, feel very happy at the beginning, dealt with problems in the process and end up having to let go of everything? i dont mean all relationships end like that but im sure when we get into a relationship, all we wanna do is to make sure we can keep that special someone in our heart forever.

but still, a relationship is hard to maintain. its even harder to trust and compromise, especially if you have had bad experience from a previous relationship. i also want to be with my special someone and then intro him to everyone i know saying "he's my boyfriend".

the other thing is, its definitely kinda hard to compromise since friends are also important. at one point, all of us want to spend our lives with our boyfriend/girlfriend but at the other point, we cant neglect our friends too.

spending time with our boyfriend/girlfriend makes our friends think we're neglecting them and spending time with our friends, might also make our boyfriend/girlfriend think we're neglecting them. either way, the person who suffers is ourselves.

sad case.

now, who dont want a life with a significant someone? a happy life with someone who constantly pampers you. all i have to do is to wait for that special someone to appear..

had my mma assignment demo today and guess what happened. haaa, first thing when we start our demo was, the first bug came out. our game just couldnt restart the game when it lose at the first round but Wenna lost control of the tigger and died (i knew it). then teacher spotted that bug.

later, the tigger started bounce itself mid-air. that's another bug we couldnt solve. lol.

after that, Alex showed us magic tricks with the Kids Kards. damn nice. but then ex leh 30 bucks. if not i will buy and show the trick also loh =//

then Wenna, Kai Ling and Theresa watch Inuyasha but then i brought the wrong disc. the one without the second episode. actually not my fault either. i didnt know it has such problems ;p

will borrow Tian Guo De Jia Yi from Wenna. whee!

As good as new

reformatted my lappy today. now it's so new. at least without the pop ups and the lagging.

was late for school in the morning as usual and was waiting for the lift cos i was lazy to climb the stairs. the doors of the lift opened. and omg. he was there. it was the guy whom i found the friendster. i was so stunned. cos he dressed so stylishly and even style his hair. simply so cute.

but nothing much lah. im just attracted to his voice, his looks, his everything lol. i mean, he's just those common-looking guys. and to say the truth, im usually not attracted to guys with common looks -=x

okay lets not talk about that. about the someone whom ive been trying hard to please since beginning of sem 2, is really making me more numb. im so numbed by his cold feelings towards me. everything he does or didnt do, makes me all so disappointed. simply lose hope. simply numbed.

today saw him. he was so cold towards me. said a Hi to Cheryl (yea, she and Carmen came over to NP) and didnt even bothered to say Bye when we left.

im numbed.

all the whatevers. im so sick of it.

things took a better turn nowadays. whee! xD

My hard work paid off

school as usuals these day and im happy to say im done with mma assignment already and am left with psp2 now. also done with my self-reflection paper.

Os results were out yesterday. some of my close friends didnt do very well =(

i just hope they dont feel so down.. =(

left eyelid twilt (is that the word?) which meant bad luck. indeed, when i on my laptop straight after, i saw the note WARNING: VIRUS DETECTED. oh my god. that answers why when my laptop loads to the desktop, it takes very long and sometimes never load. i just have to restart it. and my left hand menu isnt showing. this means i cant navigate the functions of blogdrive.

am gonna reformat tomorrow. =//

saw the guy who sings like The Calling. so darn cute.

spent like 5 hours looking for his friendster. was at my wit's end until i did a Yahoo! search to find Ngee Ann Song Composing Club. got to a blog of a Mass Comm babe who stated she's in the Song Composing Club so decided to drop her an E-Mail (she had her E-Maill add in her blog) cos i thought maybe i could start looking through the President of SCC which initially, all of us thought it was the guy who looks like Tao Zhe.

lucky for me, she replied my E-Mail today and stated that the President's name is Wei Jian. went to search through her friendster and found him!

he's like so cute lorh. and yes. he has a twin. so i was thinking... was all those times the person i saw was him or his twin? they look so darn alike. so cute. i had always loved twins :)

but at least im sure he is the one who sings like The Calling.

:) my efforts were paid off.